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LIFE IN THE PICKLE JAR


Time.
I woke up at 1:30 AM today. That's not my usual time to solve world problems from my pillow. I scoured my brain to find any reason I...
lifeinthepicklejar
Sep 53 min read


Black & White
A narc thinks and lives in 2 colors. Black & White. That’s it. You either “are” or you “aren’t”. Once you are deemed “are” or “aren’t” by...
lifeinthepicklejar
Aug 13, 20234 min read


Death, Taxes & Narcissism
Post narcissistic abuse, there are 3 things I know to be certain. Death. Taxes. And the narc will always keep on narc'ing. For 2 weeks...
lifeinthepicklejar
Jul 14, 20233 min read


4" Heels
I’ve taken a few weeks to consider what's next. The best way I can describe what I felt: emotional constipation. Something within felt...
lifeinthepicklejar
Jul 2, 20234 min read


Not If, But When
Hoovering - is a behavior associated with narcissism as it is a baiting tactic that serves a narcissist's pursuit for attention and...
lifeinthepicklejar
Jun 13, 20232 min read


1,000 Paper Cuts
Fear and shame are the very things the narcissist counts on to control the survivors, keep survivors in isolation, and to be silent about...
lifeinthepicklejar
Jun 10, 20235 min read


Out of Thin Air
It can take a lifetime to shed light on, reconcile, and heal the trauma trapped within a nervous system caused by covert narcissistic...
lifeinthepicklejar
Jun 1, 20236 min read


Blocked
Why does a narcissist block someone? Simple, the answer is it is a form of punishment for not serving them. With a covert narcissist, a...
lifeinthepicklejar
May 31, 20237 min read


Who is the Stranger?
His half-sister (16 yrs younger than him) and I clicked. Before I met her via phone he told me she was lost in the world. He wanted to go...
lifeinthepicklejar
May 24, 20237 min read


Counter Parenting
Divorcing a narcissist is only a single step into a lifetime of healing. Co-parenting with the same person you’re healing from creates an...
lifeinthepicklejar
May 16, 20235 min read


Trail of Destruction
Healthy closure in narcissistic abuse is not possible. In the discard stage, the narc will leave the survivor without thought or need for...
lifeinthepicklejar
May 10, 20235 min read


Compartments
Compartments, by definition, are to create divisions or categories. By psychological definition, it refers to the "division" of certain...
lifeinthepicklejar
May 5, 20234 min read


Life Begins at 41
Universally, narcs ruin any day or situation that pulls the attention away from them. Narcs suck the joy out of daily life, holidays, and...
lifeinthepicklejar
Apr 29, 20234 min read


Wardrobe Control
In Feb 2022, after he shuttered my businesses and then fired me from his company, I had no personal money. He had my credit card maxed...
lifeinthepicklejar
Apr 27, 20236 min read


Morally Bankrupt
Narcs use people. It really is that simple. They are incapable of caring for or loving anyone. They don’t love themselves. Narcissism at...
lifeinthepicklejar
Apr 20, 20235 min read


Devil's Triangle
The narc got caught in another triangle or affair before mine. I had heard little bits of this story. Of course from the narc’s smear...
lifeinthepicklejar
Apr 15, 20238 min read


Invalidation
Narcissists invalidate people so naturally, so subtly, it's almost missed in real-time. Narcissists invalidate in order to protect...
lifeinthepicklejar
Apr 7, 20235 min read


Moving On
I heard yesterday from one of the narc's flying monkeys “We just feel like you aren’t moving on like you are stuck in vengeance mode”. I...
lifeinthepicklejar
Apr 4, 20235 min read


Hear the Smear
Listen for it. His denial. His long-winded answers as they turn into explanations of why the sky is green. His shifting of blame. Word...
lifeinthepicklejar
Mar 29, 20234 min read


I Do(n't).
Why do narcissists bother getting married? It's a question I have endlessly mulled over. Why did he even bother marrying me when he knew...
lifeinthepicklejar
Mar 25, 20237 min read
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